i hate this

you know what makes me angry? jimmy. whenever he's around guys(that aren't krys or ben, well sometimes ben), he always acts different. it really annoys me. i can't describe it, he's just different. you know, i haven't left the house since he went home to orlando and then he calls me when he's hanging out with his brother and his brother's friends, and i dunno, he's just all different. there's a whole different vibe to him. i just wanted to hang up.and then, he's like, "i don't wanna go back up. i like being here. i can act silly. i don't wanna go to school anymore. i don't wanna grow up. blah, blah, blah....."so, what? you don't want to see me anymore? you don't have fun with me and can't act silly around me? you don't want to grow old with me anymore? you just want to live at home forever and act weird? oh, and he also put his brother's friend on the phone to talk to me and make me sound like a moron cause he knows i hate talking on the phone, and i can't talk to people i don't know without sounding stupid. it made me so angry. his brother and friends must think that i'm a loser or this condescending witch minus the "w" and add a "b".i know it. i know that when he leaves gainesville to work at the job his mom is handing to him, he's going to be leaving me behind too, and not just gainesville.i dunno, i'm just really upset now. i'm sure that when i see him tomorrow, my heart will just melt right into his hand, but right now, i feel angry. why does he have to act all weird on the phone?

skalloween

this past sunday was skalloween. it was ok i guess. the only reason for really going was to show off my super cool robin costume. of course i had the best costume there but of course i didn't win any of the costume contests. this dumb kid wearing an afro and a record around his neck, and this dumb girl with a black & white striped shirt and a pirate hat won. it made me so angry. i worked hard on my costume and it looks really awesome but apparently people are haters. jimmy was so funny that night. this fat bouncer guy told jimmy to move away from the know-how's equipment and jimmy was like, "shut the f*ck up! i know those guys! and i'm in a band, i know about equipment, you f*ck!" and the bouncer guy shut up and turned away. ha! ha!oh and one pump chump dressed up like girls. ben looked really funny. he had pretty big boobs and pink hair.then when we went home, ben and trish came over and we played ddr and crazy taxi with the dance pad, and then we played pictionary which really sucked cause ben and trish kept guessing each other's pictures correctly so me and jimmy never got a chance to play except for once in the beginning. actually, it was kinda funny.well, i think that about wraps it up!mwahaha!

happiness is all the rage

well, this passing sunday was my birthday. yup, i turned 20 on october 20. quoting my brother, "how many times do you get to see that!"but anyways, my b-day was a good day. jimmy made baked ziti for me, and we baked cake (it had crayon candles on it, they were cooler than a cool), and carved out a pumpkin for halloween. krys came over too and ate cake and gave me peppermint pez and a bag of straws which i'm fully grateful for. it was really fun. talking about halloween, me and jimmy made the coolest halloween decorations for our front door. i still don't know what i'm gonna do for halloween. trish invited us to a halloween party for her club, i think it'll be cool but i dunno if jimmy is interested, he never wants to go to social gatherings, but then again, i'm pretty much the same way, so we'll see what happens. i kinda feel like just throwing a small good old-fashioned soda pop party with funny halloween songs for us nerdy kids. oh oh! and we could play dance dance revolution!

halloween costumes

well, halloween time is coming up and i need to come up with an outfit. last year i didn't do anything. well, i did go over jimmy's and "watched" what women want, but that wasn't hallowen related. last year was the first year in my whole life that i didn't dress up and go trick or treating. so i'm determined to do that this year, well, atleast get dressed up and do something festive. i either want to be robin as in batman's sidekick, or maybe tinkerbell, or maybe an evil mercenary fairy. i dunno yet. i have to go to goodwill and see what i can find to make one of the above costumes. oh and i wanna make halloween cookies and cupcakes. it's gonna be "ghastly" fun! hehe....

poop

i got this from poopreport.com (thanks ben!)i just thought it was funny. enjoy! Quick background: I was off from work today, so I slept in a bit and woke up to grumbling bowel. I took a relatively big shit, as I hadn't in at least one and a half, maybe two days, and it seemed pretty normal. Now, I had also just received my new computer the day before, so I skipped breakfast and went to start setting it up. Time flew, and it was nearly 1 P.M. before I realized I hadn't eaten anything. I found some leftover macaroni and cheese, which I reheated. I then plopped in front of my computer and started to eat. When I was almost done, I felt the sudden urge to fart. Usually, that's all they are, but a few times in the past, a little substance comes out with it. Not that big a deal. Today, however, I pushed out the fart and felt a warm, wide stream of liquid fill my asscrack. I froze for a second, not knowing what to do, recoiling in horror at the sensation of feeling my underwear (briefs) fill up with liquid. I bolted to the bathroom, where I took of my clothes -- to be greeted with a long light-brown streak. I didn't even try cleaning it. I just threw away the underwear and jumped on the toilet as I was feeling a second wave. Toilet paper was not going to do the job, so I had to take a shower. I got a new pair of underwear and put my clothes back on. I was glad that was finally over, but as I sat down in front of my computer, it still felt wet down there. I turned around and felt the seat, which was a little damp but not anywhere near what I felt. I quickly reached back and felt my shorts. I ripped them off and much to my dismay, I saw the same light-brown streak on the outside of my shorts! My diarrhea explosion had soaked through my underwear AND through the thick material of my shorts! I'm lucky that these were tan shorts; I was able to use some of that Wisk stuff to get rid of the stain easily. But I will never forget that day. And I will never again wear the same clothes after I diarrhea in them. -- Somedude

hip! hip! hooray!

it seems that so many good things are happening at once. first of all, today me and jimmy finally found a house. its the cutest thing in the world and it's close to campus too. its on 10th st. which is right across from the flower shop next to smoke. only thing that sucks is that we have to pay $1500 to move in but the guy said we could just pay it in small amounts. but i need to get $500 by this friday to ensure that they keep the house for us. i get paid this friday but i still owe ariel $365. it makes me so angry that i had to stay there for the extra month. if my sister just would have let me move out when i wanted to it would be so much easier on my family and me in paying all of this.but anyways, back to the good stuff. earlier today, we went to hyde and zeke's to look at records and get a new needle, and they had free bright eyes posters and postcards! i snagged three posters and a ton of postcards. then, yesterday while trying to find a house to look at, we ran across a big lots. there jimmy found the coolest darth vader lip balm and i bought myself a pair of green power ranger underoos for $3! they are so hot!then on the way home, we stopped by a salvation army that just opened up and we found a turntable for $15 and a singer sewing machine for $20! what a bargain. now we can buy punk records and sew our own clothes! cool!well, i gotta go study for my statistics class which makes no sense at all. so wish me luck.

pour some sugar on me!

yeah i finally have a job! starting next week i'm gonna be the new girl in the game room on friday and saturday nights, which means free bowling and watching the dance people. i only get paid $5.15, but apparently i don't do much but sit around, so i guess i can't really complain.(jimmy is rubbing his naked butt on me right now, just thought i'll let you know). me and jimmy currently own two ep2 yodas which are rare and selling for $40+ on ebay and we only bought em for $5 each. haha! losers!i got a super cool light saber that lights up and makes sounds. jimmy got one that only lights up. his is lame. and we just got krys a darth maul light saber. although it only lights up too, it is still cooler than jimmy's cause it's two-sided. poop in a bucket.oh, i almost forgot. i got a princess leia boush disguise figure from the 80's for only $8 on ebay! and to think it cost $20 bucks at that comic book store in orlando. and it's like i got it for free since i used my show money to buy it. we had a show in lakeland a week ago friday. we got paid the most ever. $10 each!!!!!!poop in a corner.

bike with no hand brakes + going downhill = me falling on my butt

it's been a long time since i've written anything. it feels weird writting. but anyways, i'm finally back in gainesville and so happy cause finally i'm with jimmy again. those two and a half weeks seemed like two and half million years! it was so weird when i saw jimmy again. it was like we were starting over or something but everything's back to normal and feels just the way it always does: perfect.oh and i bought jimmy a dvd player (its not really a gift when you think about it cause it benefits the both of us and i hate the fact that it does)but its really cool. i don't think he realizes i bought it for him either, but i'm gonna buy him something that only he can use as soon as i find something that suits him perfectly. but anyways we rented "Comrades: Almost a love story" from the school library and it rocks. it's the best movie in the world. you need to watch it. and we also have the harry potter dvd which sucks cause i can't find the extra scenes.i'm so happy cause i got the coolest bike now. jimmy got it for me but i'm gonna pay him back although he tells me not to. but its supposedly vintage and it has a basket and a back seat thing like in Comrades! cool! but sadly, i can't ride it any time soon cause on saturday me and jimmy were riding bikes home and we were going downhill and the bike i was on had no hand brakes, it had those weird "push backwards on the pedals to stop" brakes and i've never been able to do that and i was going too fast and i couldn't stop and i just fell. i slid off the sidewalk onto the street which was really scary. and now i have "owchies" on both of my legs, my hands, and left elbow. so i walk like a robot now, although today i'm significantly better. hopefully by wednesday i'll be up and at it so i can go look for a job. i am sooooooo broke!

i wanna wake up naked next to you kissing the curve of your clavicle!

so today is my mom's birthday (and jimmy's as well!). isn't that weird? what are the odds that your mom's and boyfriend's birthdays fall on the same day? anyways, me, my mom, sister, and dad went out to eat and then i begged to go bowling so we did. it was so fun. and of course i won both games we played! i won the first game with 130! my highest score yet. woo-hoo! i am the bowling champion!i'm supposed to be flying to orlando tomorrow and jimmy is supposed to pick me up there but i haven't heard from him. so i hope he calls me or something or i'm gonna be stranded in orlando. poop.

i am cat woman, hear me roar!

hey, i forgot to say, today i also went with my mom to the mall and i went to hot topic which is the only decent/cool store in the mall (although super expensive, they do have some cute stuff you can't resist to buy), and there i bought the coolest thing: cat ears! i couldn't resist, they're so cute! i'm gonna wear em every day!and by the way, puerto rico wasn't that bad. as we drove across the island, i got to see the coolest sites. well, not sites, per say, but just the country side and the mountains. it was beautiful.

complain, complain, complain

well i just got to miami today from my mini-visit to puerto rico. and i don't mean to complain and look so drab, but i must say that this trip was not the best. i went to the beach three times: one time it was barely sunny and the water was nice and clear but freezing, the second time it wasn't sunny at all and the beach was full of seaweed, and the third time the day was finally sunny but the beach was full of seaweed. one day we drove for i don't know how long to go to the other side of the island to go to the city of ponce to find nothing. sure, there was el parque de bomberos but it sucked cause they closed everything off. and then i was starving and we couldn't find anything to eat. we finally find a burger king and guess what? puerto rico burger kings don't have the veggie, so i get stuck only eating fries. yum! that's really filling. there's more to complain about but i'll just leave it at the whole trip was practically doing whatever my brother wanted to do (except for when we went bowling, that was actually my idea) and during the last day i was there, my brother saids that he doesn't ever wanna come to puerto rico with me again and that i just should have stayed in miami cause i complain too much. true, i might complain alot sometimes, but when i go on vacation somewhere and everything we do sucks and i'm bored out of my mind, i think i have a right to complain. and i'm sure that someone's thinking that i should be fortunate to even get the chance to fly to puerto rico but i don't care. the point is that i didn't want to go to puerto rico in the first place and my dad told me to go anyways and so i did even though i just wanted to stay in miami especially since silvia was coming back and i could hang out with her and alex. but i got here today, my mom's birthday is tomorrow, and i'm going back to gainesville tuesday. so it looks like i won't be able to do what i wanted to. my whole purpose for coming to miami is void. and you know what also sucked? me and jimmy's 6th month anniversary was this saturday, may 25. i was in puerto rico and he was in san francisco. i wasn't able to be with him, i wasn't even able to talk to him and i still haven't talked to him! argh! jimmy where are you? ='(

velociraptors eating burgers in puerto rico

in approximately 5 hours i'm gonna be leaving for puerto rico. well, actually, i'm going to the virgin islands....haha (no you didn't!). but no, seriously, my dad told me today, out of nowhere, that i was going to puerto rico and the plane leaves at 7:10 in the morning. what the hell? i mean, its not like i mind going to puerto rico, its a nice tropical location and all, i get to relax at the beach and enjoy myself, but the truth of the matter is that it's such short notice and i dunno, i just don't feel it, i don't feel myself going to puerto rico right now, it feels weird for some reason. but oh well, maybe it'll help pass the time till i go back to gainesville. it seems like this week has gone by so slowly and the 28th seems so far away.....once again, i must mention that i desperately miss jimmy. jimmy thinks i'm ok with it and am handling being apart better than he is cause i seem so calm on the phone or something, but i do miss him so much, my heart aches for him, to feel his touch, to feel his arms around me, to burrow into him, to see his cute smile which he claims is retarded (but that's what makes it so cute!). i know he's reading this thinking i'm making all this up cause i know he's reading this but i don't care....i do miss you and argh! i can't stand being apart from you! *mwah!* that kiss goes to jimmy so whoever reads this, don't try to steal it and take it for yourself,....or else (like the godfather saids, and you know you can't mess with the godfather so don't try anything like serve yourself coke in a clear cup or he'll send his men after you!). anyways, i finally figured out chords for my velociraptor song, i think i might call it "hamburglar with a money bag" cause thats funny. but anyways, i thought i'll write down the lyrics. i think you guys will enjoy it (warning:its kinda gross!):when i walked down that street and my eyes meet yoursyou were just a strangeras i walk down this same street, i think of how you leftand you are a strangerand i.....wanna kick your face in and punch your head right offpee on your headless bodyand face the crowd laughing as your head rolls down the streetonly to be squished by an on-coming carand i'll walk up to the driver and shake his handi'll give him a dollar to see him do it againas i punch your head off and pee on your headless bodyi laugh as your head rolls down the streeti'll rip your heart out and feed it to a veloceraptorand he'll eat it like a burger...rip your intestines out, eat it like spagetti...rip your kidneys out, eat it like garbonzos...rip your liver out, eat it like some liver!

I wish i could beam you up here and just hold you for hours and not say anything

oh my god. you won't believe what happened today. my brother is such a rere. today he was driving my sister's car and apparently he tried to squeeze between some truck and some wall somewhere (he was at a gas station) but the car didn't fit and the whole right side of the car is all scratched up now and the door handle for the back seat was ripped off. and then my brother gets upset at my mom because my mom is angry at him and told him he couldn't drive the car anymore??? aaawww, right now on saturday night live will ferrel is singing that song, "you've got the way to move me cherry, you got the way to groove me." or however it goes, you know, that neil diamond song they sang in saving silverman. ahfmmmmm......jimmy.....i miss you!!!!!!! beam me up jimmy!oh oh! i got the two coolest shirts today at the dollar store near my house. you may be asking, "since when did dollar stores sell shirts?" all i have to say is, "shut up! and accept it." j/k. i'm not that mean. actually the dollar store near my house is really cool cause it's kinda like a dollar store thrift store among other things. it has everything. woo-hoo for dollar stores! only thing that sucks is that it doesn't have pez refills. what am i gonna do without my daily fix of pez!?! maybe i'll implode into the depths of nothingness. maybe, just maybe, i'll run into an alien that poops pez candy and he'll have diarrhea and i'll have tons of pez candy! muahahahaha! gross! i just realized what i wrote. that was indeed disgusting. why, oh why must my life revolve around poop?hehe

love is pooping in his presence and not caring

today i had a talk with my mom about love. it was pretty cool. i played for my mom that little part of my song that i've written:"i see how they act, i see how they hate, i see how unhappy, so i know that this can't last, so i sit here feeling so out of place, is it true that not all stars fall from the sky....to die." i was thinking of my parents when i wrote that. i told her how i see how unhappy she is, and i'm scared that me and jimmy will end up the same. she actually started crying and blah, blah, blah, it was a bonding moment. but she said me and jimmy won't end up like my dad and her cause me and jimmy are actually friends. she just jumped in too quickly and never really knew my father. that sucks. i wish my mom could be happy. i wish she experienced real love like me and jimmy. ah, i'm such a dork.

the dark side clouded force, it has....read this journal entry, you must

today i saw star wars episode 2: the attack of the clones with alex. it was a pretty good movie unlike episode one, which was kinda long and boring. but what moves this movie up a notch is the fact that yoda fights! yup, the old little green dude battles it out with a light saber. it's the coolest thing in the world. you gotta see this movie just for this scene. it's a classic! yoda is so cute and loveable. i just wanna grab him and hug him a while. hehe.but one thing that perplexes me about the movie is the whole love thing between queen/senator amidala and anikan skywalker. isn't she like twice his age or more? now that's just gross.on another note, one thing you have to buy: pre-moistened toilet paper. "it's like taking a shower after you poop!"

dogs + pizza = smelly gas

i forgot to write: today my mom ordered pizza. when i tried to get a slice out of the box, i dropped by mistake and it fell on the kitchen floor, so instead of wasting it, my mom feed it to the dog. then my sister was in the room with the dog and she smelled something really bad. the dog had farted, like it was smelly. that's disgusting. apparently it has farted before but this time it was bad. so the moral is: never feed a dog pizza.in relation to farting, here's a funny convo i had with jimmy. enjoy!: b00tycall2: you're so cute though when you talk about bathroom habits or butt stuff in general b00tycall2: you should get working on that book you were planning on when you were little Marmaladegirl20: i dunno, i never wrote down anything, so i can't really remeber all the stories i made up.....all i know is that i would sit there and make up funny bathroom stories to my mom b00tycall2: no way thats hilarious...do you remember at least one? b00tycall2: i wanna hear Marmaladegirl20: i don't really remember, i vaguely remember that one was about some guy that flooded the toilet on an airplane but i don't remember exactly what happened b00tycall2: ha...that does sound cool... b00tycall2: i don't know anyone who wouldn't buy a funny bathroom stories book Marmaladegirl20: yeah it is a good idea....it was supposed to have a section with a "have you ever......." and then i'll write like, have you ever pooped and then looked in the toilet and there was nothing there? Marmaladegirl20: or have you ever pooped and wipedbut your butt was clean? Marmaladegirl20: or have you ever pooped and it splashed in the water and water hit your butt? b00tycall2: i think everyone has Marmaladegirl20: haha......i'm sure b00tycall2: go on Marmaladegirl20: i dunno, its hard coming up with stuff Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped and fillled up the whole toilet with nuggets? Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped and try to flush it but for some reason the poop won't go down the whole? Marmaladegirl20: *hole Marmaladegirl20: that actually happened to me b00tycall2: lol...your'e killing me over here Marmaladegirl20: when i was younger i pooped and it jsut kept floating there even though i flushed like 5 times Marmaladegirl20: my grandpa called it sharkey Marmaladegirl20: my brother called it a submarine Marmaladegirl20: but it eventually flushed Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped a really long poop where it just keeps coming out and it doesn't break off so its like a snake? Marmaladegirl20: this is so disgusting! Marmaladegirl20: have you pooped and got some on the seat? Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped and when you wiped got some on your hand? Marmaladegirl20: ok, i'm stopping, this is getting too gross b00tycall2: its gross but funny at the same time...poop is funny Marmaladegirl20: yeah i know

me? felicity? it has to be a dream

i had the weirdest dream last night. apparently, i was in a class with ben and we had to pick partners and i wanted to be ben's partner really bad. luckily i was able to be ben's partner. when i walked out of the class, i ran up to ben and he hugged me and we started kissing. then later on, me and ben were at some place and jimmy comes in and starts talking to ben and he has this really sad look on his face. as i looked at jimmy, i know i was supposed to be with him, but i was with ben for some reason and i wanted to be with jimmy, but i wanted to be with ben too.when jimmy left, i said to ben, "you and jimmy are like my ben and noel from felicity." and that's all i remembered from my dream.i was kinda weirded out when i woke up cause i could remember having feelings for ben, but in real life i'm not attracted to ben in that way at all. its true that i thought ben was cute before and i still think he is a good-looking guy, but i don't wanna be with him that way (no offense to ben, you're a great guy but i love jimmy, and besides you have trish so its not like you would care if i didn't want you.)anyways, today at the mall while i was walking with jennifer and sean, i keep reaching out for a hand, jimmy's hand. i feel so plain without him. i feel so empty. i'm so used to having him by my side. and i was watching felicity and i saw felicity and noel cuddling in bed and he asked her if she wanted to move in with him and all i could think about was jimmy and me. i miss burrowing into him.

home

well i'm finally home today. whoop-tee-doo! it's not that i don't wanna be home, it's just that i hate living with "the" dog. and of course, i miss jimmy.i just finished watching buffy and roswell. the season finale of buffy is gonna be good! willow is going magic crazy and buffy's gonna have to fight her. but sadly, tonight was the very last episode of roswell ever. =( it was sad. but atleast max and liz did eventually get married. maybe one day it'll be jimmy and liz. but anyways, the show yesterday didn't go too bad. we were kinda lazy on stage cause we were all tired and there was virtually no one there. but it was fun anyway. i really like playing although i suck. i need to practice more and become more skillful at it. oh and today, i'm so proud of myself. when we stopped at a rest stop today, my mom and my sister went to eat at nathan's but i went ove to burger king and bought a veggie burger. that was cool. i felt kinda weird cause i didn't want them to say anything but i didn't care. i wonder how long i can keep up this vegetarian thing. it's funny. it just like jimmy said. its not that hard to not eat meat. i don't even crave it. but i dunno what will happen. we'll see.but anyways, who cares, all that matters now is that i'm talking to jimmy online and i'm happy.

demo recorded

cool! we recorded the demo today. at first ben tried to record us separately but that just didn't work out, so we just played all together and recorded it like that and apparently it came out pretty good, at least decent. then later we went to krys's house and recorded the voices. that was pretty fun. i liked singing my song, even though i think i sound bad. but jimmy thinks i sound good, so maybe there will be more songs for me to sing on stage. that'll be cool. after recording the voices we flyered up campus. and i chalked up carlton auditorium and the reitz union. that was super cool. and then, when we walked back to the car i stole a brick from the sidewalk. haha. now the construction worker people are gonna be short one brick. but i'm gonna paint it and make a piece of artwork out of it. i think that suits it better than a retarded design in the sidewalk. well, i'm gonna go to bed now cause i need to wake up early to pass out flyers on campus even though i don't have school tomorrow.

excited, bored, aggravated

arg! i just wrote a ton and i clicked on the question mark to find out what that auto-format thing was and everything i wrote got erased. so now, i'm all upset and pouty. i used to be excited yet bored. anyways, here's a quick recap of what i previously wrote:i'm so excited cause i finally have a live journal. i dunno why its cool, but it just is. but it sucks cause i'm bored at home (well actually jimmy's apartment) and i'm not tired and can't fall asleep although its like 6 in the morning. i've been bored pretty much all day. jimmy went home for mother's day and i've had nothing to do since he left. gosh! i always notice what a big loser i am every time jimmy's not around. i never have anything to do when jimmy's not around and i never had anything to do before i even knew jimmy. i'm very dependable on jimmy when it comes to having fun and hanging out. the only people i hang out with now are jimmy's friends, which have technically become my friends, but not really. you know what i mean, cause if jimmy's not around, i don't hang out with them. i just wish i had someone i could hang out with and bond with here in UF besides jimmy (no offense to jimmy). i just wanna have friends besides my boyfriend. me and darcy seem to get along pretty good. but i dunno, she seems to have a ton of friends and always seems busy with them, i doubt she'll want to make room for me, especially since she used to hate me because of the whole jimmy thing (she even called me a slut cause of the whole danny thing which is a whole other story and quite possibly the worst moment of my life). but she did ask me if i wanted to go on a roadtrip with her to georgia or somewhere to see bright eyes. so maybe this could be the start of me and her hanging out without needing the presence of jimmy to bring us together. oh! oh! tomorrow, or should i say today(sunday), we're recording a demo! cool! but i'm really nervous cause i think i suck and will mess up the recording or take forever to get my part perfect. argh! this is so much pressure!one more thought to ponder over before i stop writting: to be or not to be vegetarian? hmmmm.....?