Friday, August 3, 2007

i hate this



you know what makes me angry? jimmy. whenever he's around guys(that aren't krys or ben, well sometimes ben), he always acts different. it really annoys me. i can't describe it, he's just different. you know, i haven't left the house since he went home to orlando and then he calls me when he's hanging out with his brother and his brother's friends, and i dunno, he's just all different. there's a whole different vibe to him. i just wanted to hang up.and then, he's like, "i don't wanna go back up. i like being here. i can act silly. i don't wanna go to school anymore. i don't wanna grow up. blah, blah, blah....."so, what? you don't want to see me anymore? you don't have fun with me and can't act silly around me? you don't want to grow old with me anymore? you just want to live at home forever and act weird? oh, and he also put his brother's friend on the phone to talk to me and make me sound like a moron cause he knows i hate talking on the phone, and i can't talk to people i don't know without sounding stupid. it made me so angry. his brother and friends must think that i'm a loser or this condescending witch minus the "w" and add a "b".i know it. i know that when he leaves gainesville to work at the job his mom is handing to him, he's going to be leaving me behind too, and not just gainesville.i dunno, i'm just really upset now. i'm sure that when i see him tomorrow, my heart will just melt right into his hand, but right now, i feel angry. why does he have to act all weird on the phone?