bike with no hand brakes + going downhill = me falling on my butt

it's been a long time since i've written anything. it feels weird writting. but anyways, i'm finally back in gainesville and so happy cause finally i'm with jimmy again. those two and a half weeks seemed like two and half million years! it was so weird when i saw jimmy again. it was like we were starting over or something but everything's back to normal and feels just the way it always does: perfect.oh and i bought jimmy a dvd player (its not really a gift when you think about it cause it benefits the both of us and i hate the fact that it does)but its really cool. i don't think he realizes i bought it for him either, but i'm gonna buy him something that only he can use as soon as i find something that suits him perfectly. but anyways we rented "Comrades: Almost a love story" from the school library and it rocks. it's the best movie in the world. you need to watch it. and we also have the harry potter dvd which sucks cause i can't find the extra scenes.i'm so happy cause i got the coolest bike now. jimmy got it for me but i'm gonna pay him back although he tells me not to. but its supposedly vintage and it has a basket and a back seat thing like in Comrades! cool! but sadly, i can't ride it any time soon cause on saturday me and jimmy were riding bikes home and we were going downhill and the bike i was on had no hand brakes, it had those weird "push backwards on the pedals to stop" brakes and i've never been able to do that and i was going too fast and i couldn't stop and i just fell. i slid off the sidewalk onto the street which was really scary. and now i have "owchies" on both of my legs, my hands, and left elbow. so i walk like a robot now, although today i'm significantly better. hopefully by wednesday i'll be up and at it so i can go look for a job. i am sooooooo broke!

i wanna wake up naked next to you kissing the curve of your clavicle!

so today is my mom's birthday (and jimmy's as well!). isn't that weird? what are the odds that your mom's and boyfriend's birthdays fall on the same day? anyways, me, my mom, sister, and dad went out to eat and then i begged to go bowling so we did. it was so fun. and of course i won both games we played! i won the first game with 130! my highest score yet. woo-hoo! i am the bowling champion!i'm supposed to be flying to orlando tomorrow and jimmy is supposed to pick me up there but i haven't heard from him. so i hope he calls me or something or i'm gonna be stranded in orlando. poop.

i am cat woman, hear me roar!

hey, i forgot to say, today i also went with my mom to the mall and i went to hot topic which is the only decent/cool store in the mall (although super expensive, they do have some cute stuff you can't resist to buy), and there i bought the coolest thing: cat ears! i couldn't resist, they're so cute! i'm gonna wear em every day!and by the way, puerto rico wasn't that bad. as we drove across the island, i got to see the coolest sites. well, not sites, per say, but just the country side and the mountains. it was beautiful.

complain, complain, complain

well i just got to miami today from my mini-visit to puerto rico. and i don't mean to complain and look so drab, but i must say that this trip was not the best. i went to the beach three times: one time it was barely sunny and the water was nice and clear but freezing, the second time it wasn't sunny at all and the beach was full of seaweed, and the third time the day was finally sunny but the beach was full of seaweed. one day we drove for i don't know how long to go to the other side of the island to go to the city of ponce to find nothing. sure, there was el parque de bomberos but it sucked cause they closed everything off. and then i was starving and we couldn't find anything to eat. we finally find a burger king and guess what? puerto rico burger kings don't have the veggie, so i get stuck only eating fries. yum! that's really filling. there's more to complain about but i'll just leave it at the whole trip was practically doing whatever my brother wanted to do (except for when we went bowling, that was actually my idea) and during the last day i was there, my brother saids that he doesn't ever wanna come to puerto rico with me again and that i just should have stayed in miami cause i complain too much. true, i might complain alot sometimes, but when i go on vacation somewhere and everything we do sucks and i'm bored out of my mind, i think i have a right to complain. and i'm sure that someone's thinking that i should be fortunate to even get the chance to fly to puerto rico but i don't care. the point is that i didn't want to go to puerto rico in the first place and my dad told me to go anyways and so i did even though i just wanted to stay in miami especially since silvia was coming back and i could hang out with her and alex. but i got here today, my mom's birthday is tomorrow, and i'm going back to gainesville tuesday. so it looks like i won't be able to do what i wanted to. my whole purpose for coming to miami is void. and you know what also sucked? me and jimmy's 6th month anniversary was this saturday, may 25. i was in puerto rico and he was in san francisco. i wasn't able to be with him, i wasn't even able to talk to him and i still haven't talked to him! argh! jimmy where are you? ='(

velociraptors eating burgers in puerto rico

in approximately 5 hours i'm gonna be leaving for puerto rico. well, actually, i'm going to the virgin islands....haha (no you didn't!). but no, seriously, my dad told me today, out of nowhere, that i was going to puerto rico and the plane leaves at 7:10 in the morning. what the hell? i mean, its not like i mind going to puerto rico, its a nice tropical location and all, i get to relax at the beach and enjoy myself, but the truth of the matter is that it's such short notice and i dunno, i just don't feel it, i don't feel myself going to puerto rico right now, it feels weird for some reason. but oh well, maybe it'll help pass the time till i go back to gainesville. it seems like this week has gone by so slowly and the 28th seems so far away.....once again, i must mention that i desperately miss jimmy. jimmy thinks i'm ok with it and am handling being apart better than he is cause i seem so calm on the phone or something, but i do miss him so much, my heart aches for him, to feel his touch, to feel his arms around me, to burrow into him, to see his cute smile which he claims is retarded (but that's what makes it so cute!). i know he's reading this thinking i'm making all this up cause i know he's reading this but i don't care....i do miss you and argh! i can't stand being apart from you! *mwah!* that kiss goes to jimmy so whoever reads this, don't try to steal it and take it for yourself,....or else (like the godfather saids, and you know you can't mess with the godfather so don't try anything like serve yourself coke in a clear cup or he'll send his men after you!). anyways, i finally figured out chords for my velociraptor song, i think i might call it "hamburglar with a money bag" cause thats funny. but anyways, i thought i'll write down the lyrics. i think you guys will enjoy it (warning:its kinda gross!):when i walked down that street and my eyes meet yoursyou were just a strangeras i walk down this same street, i think of how you leftand you are a strangerand i.....wanna kick your face in and punch your head right offpee on your headless bodyand face the crowd laughing as your head rolls down the streetonly to be squished by an on-coming carand i'll walk up to the driver and shake his handi'll give him a dollar to see him do it againas i punch your head off and pee on your headless bodyi laugh as your head rolls down the streeti'll rip your heart out and feed it to a veloceraptorand he'll eat it like a burger...rip your intestines out, eat it like spagetti...rip your kidneys out, eat it like garbonzos...rip your liver out, eat it like some liver!

I wish i could beam you up here and just hold you for hours and not say anything

oh my god. you won't believe what happened today. my brother is such a rere. today he was driving my sister's car and apparently he tried to squeeze between some truck and some wall somewhere (he was at a gas station) but the car didn't fit and the whole right side of the car is all scratched up now and the door handle for the back seat was ripped off. and then my brother gets upset at my mom because my mom is angry at him and told him he couldn't drive the car anymore??? aaawww, right now on saturday night live will ferrel is singing that song, "you've got the way to move me cherry, you got the way to groove me." or however it goes, you know, that neil diamond song they sang in saving silverman. ahfmmmmm......jimmy.....i miss you!!!!!!! beam me up jimmy!oh oh! i got the two coolest shirts today at the dollar store near my house. you may be asking, "since when did dollar stores sell shirts?" all i have to say is, "shut up! and accept it." j/k. i'm not that mean. actually the dollar store near my house is really cool cause it's kinda like a dollar store thrift store among other things. it has everything. woo-hoo for dollar stores! only thing that sucks is that it doesn't have pez refills. what am i gonna do without my daily fix of pez!?! maybe i'll implode into the depths of nothingness. maybe, just maybe, i'll run into an alien that poops pez candy and he'll have diarrhea and i'll have tons of pez candy! muahahahaha! gross! i just realized what i wrote. that was indeed disgusting. why, oh why must my life revolve around poop?hehe

love is pooping in his presence and not caring

today i had a talk with my mom about love. it was pretty cool. i played for my mom that little part of my song that i've written:"i see how they act, i see how they hate, i see how unhappy, so i know that this can't last, so i sit here feeling so out of place, is it true that not all stars fall from the sky....to die." i was thinking of my parents when i wrote that. i told her how i see how unhappy she is, and i'm scared that me and jimmy will end up the same. she actually started crying and blah, blah, blah, it was a bonding moment. but she said me and jimmy won't end up like my dad and her cause me and jimmy are actually friends. she just jumped in too quickly and never really knew my father. that sucks. i wish my mom could be happy. i wish she experienced real love like me and jimmy. ah, i'm such a dork.