complain, complain, complain

well i just got to miami today from my mini-visit to puerto rico. and i don't mean to complain and look so drab, but i must say that this trip was not the best. i went to the beach three times: one time it was barely sunny and the water was nice and clear but freezing, the second time it wasn't sunny at all and the beach was full of seaweed, and the third time the day was finally sunny but the beach was full of seaweed. one day we drove for i don't know how long to go to the other side of the island to go to the city of ponce to find nothing. sure, there was el parque de bomberos but it sucked cause they closed everything off. and then i was starving and we couldn't find anything to eat. we finally find a burger king and guess what? puerto rico burger kings don't have the veggie, so i get stuck only eating fries. yum! that's really filling. there's more to complain about but i'll just leave it at the whole trip was practically doing whatever my brother wanted to do (except for when we went bowling, that was actually my idea) and during the last day i was there, my brother saids that he doesn't ever wanna come to puerto rico with me again and that i just should have stayed in miami cause i complain too much. true, i might complain alot sometimes, but when i go on vacation somewhere and everything we do sucks and i'm bored out of my mind, i think i have a right to complain. and i'm sure that someone's thinking that i should be fortunate to even get the chance to fly to puerto rico but i don't care. the point is that i didn't want to go to puerto rico in the first place and my dad told me to go anyways and so i did even though i just wanted to stay in miami especially since silvia was coming back and i could hang out with her and alex. but i got here today, my mom's birthday is tomorrow, and i'm going back to gainesville tuesday. so it looks like i won't be able to do what i wanted to. my whole purpose for coming to miami is void. and you know what also sucked? me and jimmy's 6th month anniversary was this saturday, may 25. i was in puerto rico and he was in san francisco. i wasn't able to be with him, i wasn't even able to talk to him and i still haven't talked to him! argh! jimmy where are you? ='(

velociraptors eating burgers in puerto rico

in approximately 5 hours i'm gonna be leaving for puerto rico. well, actually, i'm going to the virgin islands....haha (no you didn't!). but no, seriously, my dad told me today, out of nowhere, that i was going to puerto rico and the plane leaves at 7:10 in the morning. what the hell? i mean, its not like i mind going to puerto rico, its a nice tropical location and all, i get to relax at the beach and enjoy myself, but the truth of the matter is that it's such short notice and i dunno, i just don't feel it, i don't feel myself going to puerto rico right now, it feels weird for some reason. but oh well, maybe it'll help pass the time till i go back to gainesville. it seems like this week has gone by so slowly and the 28th seems so far away.....once again, i must mention that i desperately miss jimmy. jimmy thinks i'm ok with it and am handling being apart better than he is cause i seem so calm on the phone or something, but i do miss him so much, my heart aches for him, to feel his touch, to feel his arms around me, to burrow into him, to see his cute smile which he claims is retarded (but that's what makes it so cute!). i know he's reading this thinking i'm making all this up cause i know he's reading this but i don't care....i do miss you and argh! i can't stand being apart from you! *mwah!* that kiss goes to jimmy so whoever reads this, don't try to steal it and take it for yourself,....or else (like the godfather saids, and you know you can't mess with the godfather so don't try anything like serve yourself coke in a clear cup or he'll send his men after you!). anyways, i finally figured out chords for my velociraptor song, i think i might call it "hamburglar with a money bag" cause thats funny. but anyways, i thought i'll write down the lyrics. i think you guys will enjoy it (warning:its kinda gross!):when i walked down that street and my eyes meet yoursyou were just a strangeras i walk down this same street, i think of how you leftand you are a strangerand i.....wanna kick your face in and punch your head right offpee on your headless bodyand face the crowd laughing as your head rolls down the streetonly to be squished by an on-coming carand i'll walk up to the driver and shake his handi'll give him a dollar to see him do it againas i punch your head off and pee on your headless bodyi laugh as your head rolls down the streeti'll rip your heart out and feed it to a veloceraptorand he'll eat it like a burger...rip your intestines out, eat it like spagetti...rip your kidneys out, eat it like garbonzos...rip your liver out, eat it like some liver!

I wish i could beam you up here and just hold you for hours and not say anything

oh my god. you won't believe what happened today. my brother is such a rere. today he was driving my sister's car and apparently he tried to squeeze between some truck and some wall somewhere (he was at a gas station) but the car didn't fit and the whole right side of the car is all scratched up now and the door handle for the back seat was ripped off. and then my brother gets upset at my mom because my mom is angry at him and told him he couldn't drive the car anymore??? aaawww, right now on saturday night live will ferrel is singing that song, "you've got the way to move me cherry, you got the way to groove me." or however it goes, you know, that neil diamond song they sang in saving silverman. ahfmmmmm......jimmy.....i miss you!!!!!!! beam me up jimmy!oh oh! i got the two coolest shirts today at the dollar store near my house. you may be asking, "since when did dollar stores sell shirts?" all i have to say is, "shut up! and accept it." j/k. i'm not that mean. actually the dollar store near my house is really cool cause it's kinda like a dollar store thrift store among other things. it has everything. woo-hoo for dollar stores! only thing that sucks is that it doesn't have pez refills. what am i gonna do without my daily fix of pez!?! maybe i'll implode into the depths of nothingness. maybe, just maybe, i'll run into an alien that poops pez candy and he'll have diarrhea and i'll have tons of pez candy! muahahahaha! gross! i just realized what i wrote. that was indeed disgusting. why, oh why must my life revolve around poop?hehe

love is pooping in his presence and not caring

today i had a talk with my mom about love. it was pretty cool. i played for my mom that little part of my song that i've written:"i see how they act, i see how they hate, i see how unhappy, so i know that this can't last, so i sit here feeling so out of place, is it true that not all stars fall from the sky....to die." i was thinking of my parents when i wrote that. i told her how i see how unhappy she is, and i'm scared that me and jimmy will end up the same. she actually started crying and blah, blah, blah, it was a bonding moment. but she said me and jimmy won't end up like my dad and her cause me and jimmy are actually friends. she just jumped in too quickly and never really knew my father. that sucks. i wish my mom could be happy. i wish she experienced real love like me and jimmy. ah, i'm such a dork.

the dark side clouded force, it has....read this journal entry, you must

today i saw star wars episode 2: the attack of the clones with alex. it was a pretty good movie unlike episode one, which was kinda long and boring. but what moves this movie up a notch is the fact that yoda fights! yup, the old little green dude battles it out with a light saber. it's the coolest thing in the world. you gotta see this movie just for this scene. it's a classic! yoda is so cute and loveable. i just wanna grab him and hug him a while. hehe.but one thing that perplexes me about the movie is the whole love thing between queen/senator amidala and anikan skywalker. isn't she like twice his age or more? now that's just gross.on another note, one thing you have to buy: pre-moistened toilet paper. "it's like taking a shower after you poop!"

dogs + pizza = smelly gas

i forgot to write: today my mom ordered pizza. when i tried to get a slice out of the box, i dropped by mistake and it fell on the kitchen floor, so instead of wasting it, my mom feed it to the dog. then my sister was in the room with the dog and she smelled something really bad. the dog had farted, like it was smelly. that's disgusting. apparently it has farted before but this time it was bad. so the moral is: never feed a dog pizza.in relation to farting, here's a funny convo i had with jimmy. enjoy!: b00tycall2: you're so cute though when you talk about bathroom habits or butt stuff in general b00tycall2: you should get working on that book you were planning on when you were little Marmaladegirl20: i dunno, i never wrote down anything, so i can't really remeber all the stories i made up.....all i know is that i would sit there and make up funny bathroom stories to my mom b00tycall2: no way thats hilarious...do you remember at least one? b00tycall2: i wanna hear Marmaladegirl20: i don't really remember, i vaguely remember that one was about some guy that flooded the toilet on an airplane but i don't remember exactly what happened b00tycall2: ha...that does sound cool... b00tycall2: i don't know anyone who wouldn't buy a funny bathroom stories book Marmaladegirl20: yeah it is a good idea....it was supposed to have a section with a "have you ever......." and then i'll write like, have you ever pooped and then looked in the toilet and there was nothing there? Marmaladegirl20: or have you ever pooped and wipedbut your butt was clean? Marmaladegirl20: or have you ever pooped and it splashed in the water and water hit your butt? b00tycall2: i think everyone has Marmaladegirl20: haha......i'm sure b00tycall2: go on Marmaladegirl20: i dunno, its hard coming up with stuff Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped and fillled up the whole toilet with nuggets? Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped and try to flush it but for some reason the poop won't go down the whole? Marmaladegirl20: *hole Marmaladegirl20: that actually happened to me b00tycall2: lol...your'e killing me over here Marmaladegirl20: when i was younger i pooped and it jsut kept floating there even though i flushed like 5 times Marmaladegirl20: my grandpa called it sharkey Marmaladegirl20: my brother called it a submarine Marmaladegirl20: but it eventually flushed Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped a really long poop where it just keeps coming out and it doesn't break off so its like a snake? Marmaladegirl20: this is so disgusting! Marmaladegirl20: have you pooped and got some on the seat? Marmaladegirl20: have you ever pooped and when you wiped got some on your hand? Marmaladegirl20: ok, i'm stopping, this is getting too gross b00tycall2: its gross but funny at the same time...poop is funny Marmaladegirl20: yeah i know

me? felicity? it has to be a dream

i had the weirdest dream last night. apparently, i was in a class with ben and we had to pick partners and i wanted to be ben's partner really bad. luckily i was able to be ben's partner. when i walked out of the class, i ran up to ben and he hugged me and we started kissing. then later on, me and ben were at some place and jimmy comes in and starts talking to ben and he has this really sad look on his face. as i looked at jimmy, i know i was supposed to be with him, but i was with ben for some reason and i wanted to be with jimmy, but i wanted to be with ben too.when jimmy left, i said to ben, "you and jimmy are like my ben and noel from felicity." and that's all i remembered from my dream.i was kinda weirded out when i woke up cause i could remember having feelings for ben, but in real life i'm not attracted to ben in that way at all. its true that i thought ben was cute before and i still think he is a good-looking guy, but i don't wanna be with him that way (no offense to ben, you're a great guy but i love jimmy, and besides you have trish so its not like you would care if i didn't want you.)anyways, today at the mall while i was walking with jennifer and sean, i keep reaching out for a hand, jimmy's hand. i feel so plain without him. i feel so empty. i'm so used to having him by my side. and i was watching felicity and i saw felicity and noel cuddling in bed and he asked her if she wanted to move in with him and all i could think about was jimmy and me. i miss burrowing into him.

home

well i'm finally home today. whoop-tee-doo! it's not that i don't wanna be home, it's just that i hate living with "the" dog. and of course, i miss jimmy.i just finished watching buffy and roswell. the season finale of buffy is gonna be good! willow is going magic crazy and buffy's gonna have to fight her. but sadly, tonight was the very last episode of roswell ever. =( it was sad. but atleast max and liz did eventually get married. maybe one day it'll be jimmy and liz. but anyways, the show yesterday didn't go too bad. we were kinda lazy on stage cause we were all tired and there was virtually no one there. but it was fun anyway. i really like playing although i suck. i need to practice more and become more skillful at it. oh and today, i'm so proud of myself. when we stopped at a rest stop today, my mom and my sister went to eat at nathan's but i went ove to burger king and bought a veggie burger. that was cool. i felt kinda weird cause i didn't want them to say anything but i didn't care. i wonder how long i can keep up this vegetarian thing. it's funny. it just like jimmy said. its not that hard to not eat meat. i don't even crave it. but i dunno what will happen. we'll see.but anyways, who cares, all that matters now is that i'm talking to jimmy online and i'm happy.